beyond their control

The two drawings below are from a new series I started which is a visual exploration of  being trans and affected by depression. I use different media to do and forms of narration to investigate this very personal topic. both drawings appeared in “All In Your Head: Queerness, Neurodivergence, and Disability” Issue #3 by Sam GlitterWurst: find them on tumblr. and Etsy (where you can also order the zine!).

 

 

beyond their control

beyond their control 1 (turquoise ink on paper), cc jJsmith

 

beyond their meaning.

beyond control 2 (coal, chalk, oilpen on paper), cc jJsmith

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#TheGalleryProject – Transnational Queer Underground

I am happy to announce that you can now  find some of my artwork on Transnational Queer Underground as part of #TheGalleryProject, which aims to lift trans and queer artists all over the world!

Check it out and consider donating to them, it is an amazing project!

Tribute to Wu Tsang (cc jJsmith)

Tribute to Wu Tsang
(cc jJsmith)


conclusion.

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I’ve recently found a piece on Robot Hugs about coming out and the conclusive narratives people develop about you (‘Ah, you’re gay/trans*/queer/asexual! I always knew, because you would do this/play that/ dress like xyz as a child/ in your youth etc. pp. That explains a lot!’), which I really liked and which struck a lot of chords with me.

As much as ‘coming out’ is a step that we’re told is necessary by a hetero-normative cis-sexist society, it is not our story. As much as there might be some things that seem to similar for a lot of queer people (yes, many of us go through certain phases in our lives because we face the same oppressions, rejections and have similar doubts because society implies there’s something wrong with us), we all have our own unique stories.*

Our straight, linear, mono-temporal societies like to tell conclusive, flawless stories about how people become who they are. And how they learned to fit in. Defined their space. But our individual stories are far more complex and worthwhile and a lot of things don’t fall into place as easily and nicely as we expect them to . They are far more ‘frictious’ than the ideals that we’re expected to live up to. There are loose ends and threads that lead nowhere. Instead of believing that this due to our overall awkwardness and inconclusive history (‘But I did like to play with dolls, though…’) we should celebrate these as open ends to an ongoing process of developing ourselves. There’s nothing wrong with being constantly in-between.

*If you’re interested to deep dive into that, read Adriana Cavarero: Relating Narratives

This picture will also be featured in the #2 issue of Mothmilk, which you will soon find here


Ducks – Real or Not? Kleiner Wegweiser geschlechtliche Identität

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Magdalena Hutter und ich haben ein Minizine zum Thema geschlechtliche Identität zum Runterladen und Selbstausdrucken gebaut. Damit ihr demnächst den Leuten einfach ein Heft in die Hand drücken könnt, anstatt euch mal wieder selbst erklären zu müssen. Oder weil ihr es selber lesen wollt. Oder verschenken – an eure_n Oma, Tante, Neffen, Freund_in, Bäcker_in, Lehrer_in.

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the black adiaphane

“Open your eyes now. I will. One moment. Has all vanished since? If I open and am for ever in the black adiaphane. Basta! I will see if I can see. See now. There all the time without you: and ever shall be, world without end.”
James Joyce, Ulysses
ulysses (Coal, crayon, chalk on paper)

ulysses (coal, crayon, chalk on paper)


Mothmilk

check out this amazing zine by a friend: mothmilk //whisperwilt
mothmilk#1


Labels are for records…

A short animated video about becoming invisible in a world where everything seems to need a label.
German with English subtitles.
Product of a workshop held by TrIQ- Berlin in November of 2015.
Film by Jespa Jacob Smith. Music by Dandy and the Ghost.